"A stress fracture is a

"A stress fracture is a break in a bone caused by repetitive stress...There is often no recollection of injury. The patient may simply develop a pain after some activity...Without proper treatment, this may progress to a 'through and through' (overt) fracture of the bone."

In other words, it may just break. All that stress and the pain that's built up may cause the body to snap break bam like that. I think I have stress fractures all over my body. I think I have a stress fracture in my skull because there's been this pain on the side of my temple for months now, but I don't remember banging my head in any way. I think I have stress fractures in my ribs, because it hurts to breathe. I think I have stress fractures in my wrists, because they ache whether I use my keyboard and mouse for hours on end or I don't. I'm certain there must be a giant stress fracture in the lower part of my spine, because there's no other explanation for the shooting pain I feel when I lean over to pick up a sock on the floor. And worst of all, I think I have a stress fracture in my heart, because it just feels so sore and achy all the time.

Today's the 28th anniversary of

Today's the 28th anniversary of the Roe v. Wade decision. Today Bush announced he will reinstate a ban on federal funds for international organizations that offer abortion and abortion counseling. Today confirmation hearings continue for John Ashcroft who presages an anti-choice agenda for the office of attorney general. On Friday during his Senate confirmation, Tommy Thompson, Bush's choice for secretary of health and human services, questioned the safety of RU-486 and strongly hinted he would initiate a review of the drug's recent FDA approval. (For a more complete list of Bush's anti-choice plan, see

Though the majority of Americans support a woman's right to choose, Bush asserts, and will continue to assert, his anti-choice beliefs. He will be naming justices to the Supreme Court should anyone retire during his term. The Attorney General appointed by Bush has the authority to enforce the Freedom of Access to Clinic Entrances (FACE) Act. This is a dangerous situation for anyone who believes a woman must have authority over what happens in her body. The organizations that educate women about their reproductive choices, who work to ensure that abortions are safe, affordable, and legal, need our support now more than ever. (For more facts about the issue, check out this NARAL fact sheet.)

I'd like to ask for you support. If you've enjoyed reading megnut and are interested in giving something in return, I hope that you will contribute a small amount to one of the following organizations supporting women's right to choose: National Organization for Women, Planned Parenthood, Planned Parenthood Global Partners (to support organizations who will be impacted by the ban on federal funds to international organizations), or the National Abortion and Reproductive Rights League. (link help thanks to rebecca blood!)

For two women shot to

For two women shot to death in Brookline, Massachusetts
by Marge Piercy

How dare a woman choose?
Choose to be pregnant,
choose to be childless,
choose to be lesbian,
choose to have two lovers or none,
choose to abort
choose to live alone
choose to walk alone
at night,
choose to come and to go
without permission
without leave
without a man.

Consider a woman's blood
spilled on a desk,
pooled on an office floor,
an ordinary morning at work,
an ordinary morning of helping
other women choose
to be or not to be
means she has fallen
into death.

A woman young and smiling
sitting at a desk
trying to put other women at ease
now bleeds from five
large wounds, bleeding
from her organs
bleeding out her life.

A young man is angry at women
women who say no
women who say maybe and mean no
women who won't
women who do and they shouldn't
If they are pregnant they are bad
because that proves
they did it with someone
they did it
and should die.
A man gets angry with a woman
who decides to leave him
who decides to walk off
who decides to walk
who decides

Women are not real to such men
they should behave as meat
such men drag them into the woods
and stab them
climb in their windows and rape them
such men shoot them in kitchens
such men strangle them in bed
such men lie in wait
and ambush them in parking lots

such men walk into a clinic
and kill the first women they see.

In harm's way:
meaning in the way of a man
who is tasting his anger
like rare steak.
A daily ordinary courage
doing what has to be done
every morning, every afternoon
doing it over and over
because it is needed
put them in harm's way.

Two women dying
because a man chose that they die.
Two women dying
because they did their job
helping other women survive
Two women dead
from the stupidity of an ex altar boy
who saw himself
as a fetus
who pumped his sullen fury
into the woman in front of him
twice, and intended more.

Stand up now and say No More.
Stand up now and say We
Stand up and say We will not be ruled
by crazies and killers,
by shotguns and bombs and acid.
We will not dwell in the caves of fear.
We will make each other strong.
We will make each other safe.
There is no other monument.

A B C, It's easy

A B C, It's easy as, 1 2 3 ... blah blah blah blah ... XYZ baby you and me. Or something. I probably shouldn't use the Jackson 5 in relation to a post about a late dinner with friends. Dinner was scrumptious and delightful and mmm mmm good.

Vacuous maybe, but never vapid.

Did you know that Amazon

Did you know that Amazon had added an outlet store? I didn't until tonight, when I spotted this sweet, sweet deal: a Star Wars Episode I Darth Maul Children's Costume with Mask (Medium) marked down 50% to $20.98! Stop reading and start shopping. You cannot let a deal like this pass you buy! Har har har.

I know, somehow, that only

I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough can you see the stars.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Dinah, ever so smart and

Dinah, ever so smart and helpful, remembers the title of the play: When I Was a Girl I Used to Scream and Shout. I played Fiona. Now it's all coming back to me. I hadn't realized I'd buried those memories so deep, I wonder what else will bubble up with them?

This is sweet! Dave sent

This is sweet! Dave sent me a link to Kevin Smith's columns that he's writing about his upcoming film. It's candid and refreshing and just a cool damn way to know what's going on with Kevin (that's what I call him, just Kevin...) and his newest film. Too bad all the casting's done, I'd like to be in it. Of all the movies I've ever seen, a Kevin Smith oeuvre seems like just the "vehicle" for me.

And I have acting experience you know, I do! I was the Tin Man in my sixth grade production of The Wizard of Oz, and I dabbled in drama in high school, even playing the lead my junior year in a play whose name I can no longer recall. What I do recall is that the play had something to do with Scotland (I had to have a Scottish accent the whole time), the beach, and sex. I had to mimic having sex on the stage. I don't recall how I accomplished this exactly, having never had sex off the stage. Memories include a fake rock, a deep mortification, and an insistance that none of my friends nor family attend any of the performances.

My dad called. He says

My dad called. He says that no salmon give up. Some don't make it, he says. Some die trying, he says. But no salmon ever give up. I knew that was the case. How very dad-like of him to tell me so.

I wonder how many salmon

I wonder how many salmon never make it? How many just give up at some point as they struggle against the flow, how many just decide, "Even though this has been the goal of my life, I just can't swim upstream anymore." ?

So rumor around town is

So rumor around town is that Kevins Smith's new movie, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back, is due out this summer. Let's all hope it's better than Dogma. I think it may be, it's got Trish "the Dish" from Mallrats in it, and Jason Lee as well. I [heart] Jason Lee. [Insert Homer drool noise].

Look at me! Or

Megnut icon

Look at me! Or rather, look at the cool lil' me that Jason made. Make one yourself, so we all know what you look like.

It's a scientific fact that

It's a scientific fact that if you stay in California you lose one point of your IQ every year.
- Truman Capote

A backlash to a backlash?

A backlash to a backlash? I think that should be called a relash.

TiVo had been saving Rescue

TiVo had been saving Rescue at Sea for me for nearly a month. I finally sat down and watched it tonight. Absolutely Fascinating. Synopsis: young men into wireless craze, learning new technology, communicating with friends, mocking grown-ups and society. An accident occurs at sea. A young man is the hero. There's fame, parades and interviews, autographs are craved and collected, a movie is made to tell his tale. Young man sues film production company for invasion of privacy. The year? 1909. The young man? Jack Binns, a Marconi wireless operator. The observations? History repeats itself. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

Sylvia gave me some nice

Sylvia gave me some nice wine glasses for my birthday. They're very thin and delicate, with elegant slender stems and a simple, clean design. And I wonder as I sip from one, tasting its thinness through my lips and my tongue, what would happen if I were to bite? What if I were to bite down on this thin slender elegant curve of glass? Would it cut my tongue and my lips, blurring blood and wine? Would I swallow glass or get shards embedded in my gums? Or would it simply break into a million little diamonds, little elegant hand-blown diamonds which would stud my tongue, beguiling people as I talk?

I'm updating megnut right now

I'm updating megnut right now while the Danish TV guys are here filming the goings-on in the office. Christian, Jesper, and Andreas are here to do a segment on Blogger for their tv show Raketfart, on TV2 Zulu. If you live in Daneland (aka Denmark), you should check it out! It hasn't launched yet, but will soon. I'll post details when I know more.

Best breakfast ever: super chocolatey

Best breakfast ever: super chocolatey cookies and coffee with vanilla soy milk. Yum yum yum!

Happy Birthday Mom!

Happy Birthday Mom!

Angry megnut, angry at popup ads

Granted, I'm in a pissy mood as it is, but you know what's making it worse? GODDAMN FUCKING POPUP ADS! If you happen to have any influence regarding your company's website, and if it happens to have advertising on it, for Pete's sake, don't have banner ads that spawn pop-ups over and over and over. If you must do it, set a cookie once the user closes the window, and don't do it again. And don't launch more if the user just minimizes the first window.

I'm tempted not to even mention the name of the site that's infuriated me so with its obnoxious usage of pop-ups because I don't want to send any traffic there. But I do want you to be warned, so I'll whisper it in your ear, Epicurious. Bah, I'm never searching for recipes there again.

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